Monday, May 5, 2008
oh gosh. everybody's having weird dreams now including me :S
it was like i went to bed last night. then i got up cuz i couldn't sleep and i checked my comp which is totally normal. then i suddenly got this really bad sense of emoness that came over me like i was thinking that how the world would be a much better place without me and how many people i've hurt. then i was staring out of the window and deciding whether to jump or not. well i decided not to but THEN i saw this really sharp paper knife lying on the table that my sis had left there. i picked it up and started screaming and was about to slash myself (1st time) when my computer suddenly beeped (the hotmail thing for a new email.) i checked it and it was from an old school friend. this is what it said.
"I feel led to send this email to you even though I haven't spoken to you in a long time or even know your email. I'm guessing on chance that this is yours.
I just want you to know that although you might think the world would be a better place without you, remember that there are quite a few people out there who you mean the world to. If you are hurt, they would be hurt too.
Thanks for reading this (: and can we meet up sometime? I miss you real bad. And please know that though you mean nothing to the world, there are people whom you mean the world too."
woww nice timing :S i broke down on the spot. i don't know if i do mean the world to some people but that's a really nice thing to say anyway. thanks person (:
but i don't know if it was a dream or not, cuz i woke up in the morning at 5 before anyone else and the knife was not there, and the email wasn't in the inbox either. ohwell :S
5:01 AM
& he looks unto Him for strength again
